Cause life has a way of going too fast.
and i guess growing up makes you forget how to slow down time.
you just get so caught up in all that you have to do and all the responsibilities thrust upon you.
that you forget how to live your life and actually literally sit back and enjoy.

so that pretty much explains why i have disappeared for the longest time ever.
this year has been a pretty slow yet fast one for me.
slow in the sense that i dont feel like i have accomplished much.
though i have gained many experiences.
maybe its just me craving the fact that i could have done more with my time.
and i guess its fast cause hey look, half a year is already gone.
so looking back, i had 2 jobs.
one a boring one and one really tiring one.
so for the first job i was parted with a gift from my colleagues, a beautiful wallet that i have yet to use.
and for my second job, i parted with a gift from a dying cat, which left me with a numb thumb that just cant feel anymore.
i made many decisions along the way and here i am in singapore, not studying overseas.
i guess it has its own pros and cons.
pros being i am close to him and my family and friends.
and i can, so to speak, lead the normal singaporean life and not miss out on anything.
but the cons being that i lose out on my time and the very opportunity of actually becoming a vet.
but i know i couldnt possibly burden my mother so heavily.
it would definitely be too selfish of me.
so this debt-free path was definitely a nice choice to make in her point of view.
and i cant blame her, she has worked so hard for all her life and to have it all taken away from her not even for herself, i cant do that to her.
so im left to find my own means and one day achieve my own dream.
though i know this path means i would pretty much take forever to get there.
but hey, at least i got off to a good start.

so looking forward, here's to a new chapter of my life.
i would be a student once again (yay!)
and i would be living apart from my family.
so technically, im becoming more of an adult than i ever was.
but im ready to take this challenge and very much looking forward to it.
to finally taste what living on my own two feet really feels like.
and i hope this chapter of my life would always be complemented by him.
though im not thousands of miles away from him, there is still distance and there would still be challenges.
but i have come to a point with him that i simply cant imagine what my life would be like without him.
he has become such an integral part of me that i feel handicapped at the thought of a life without him.
not that im becoming dependant on him but he is just such a big part of me that i can never lose.
so here's to my new chapter in life.
cheers.