you know how they say absence makes the heart grow fonder.
well it sure does.
but it also tears out your heart and rip it into pieces while you wait for the moment that you can reunite with your loved one.

so i know it sounds kinda crazy but i really cant wait to work.
i mean i have just been rotting my days away at home and going out with friends.
albeit it is an enjoyable time and i know im not going to get such holidays much more,
i really want to work.
i just want to earn some cash.
and do something.
but really its about the money.
i have to got to start saving again.
doing all that shopping during my free time has desperately hurt my account.
but looking at how all my friends have like work stories to share and im just sitting at home with no new adventures...oh well.
i know work life isnt going to be filled with a different adventure everyday too.
working two weeks in an office sure taught me that well enough.
but at least i got to do something, to learn something.
to try and pursue something.
and earn money.
i seem to really want to do it for the cash.
hmmm.

so my dear boy has gone to serve the country.
and its the first night that we've gone without talking.
i sure as hell miss him.
but i guess all i can do is wait.
and i can only wish that he thought of me too.