push the thought back.
keep it there.
just for once live for your own.

so apparently its my holidays already.
somehow i just don't feel like im making full use of it yet.
i really can't wait for my vacations though.
haven't had a proper one in like 4 years so it really is a break in a long time.
i should probably get started on my work like tomorrow.
don't really have that much time left.

so the uncanny date and resemblance of events.
it scares me.
i'll admit.
one was returning and another is leaving.
ironical part is the one who returned didn't stay and the one leaving is the one who does stay.
tell me about it.
in a span of 2 years, so many things have changed.
i really never thought i would get so attached.
but i did.
the scary part is that its like a strong sense of deja vu.
like its happening again.
the time is the same.
the place is almost the same.
and the feeling is somehow same.
and that is what scares me.
that i still can feel that way.

i said i'll miss you my dear.
i pleaded with you not to go.
i wished we could stay here forever.
i wanted you to hold me close.
and as i watched you leave,
i know you saw it in my eyes.
the burning fire within me,
that you knew was never going to die.