free ourselves from this mortal world.

so we've been really busy.
i know its just this period but honestly at some points of time i cant stand it.
maybe you'll understand when your tournament's over and i still have my performance.
i wish you all the best for it.
and i wish to get mine over with for now.

week 7.
i would say its pretty fast.
but i definitely wouldnt want time to slow down.
not exactly what i need at the moment.
a lot of things have been happening and it all seems so long ago.
but in reality its actually pretty recent.
its only when i sit down and think about it that i realize how close it has been when ive been looking at the distance all along.
nothing eventful this past month.
i think.
my memory's been failing me pretty badly.
nothing significant in school.
other than how much i wish i was in venice.
as for him, i still think of that wonderful night.
it was pretty much flawless.
and that look in your eyes, its like you were falling in love for the first time.
i enjoyed every single bit of it.
i definitely would have to thank you for such a memorable experience.
and to finish the night on such a sweet note, that look you gave me after you finished reading the poem.
god i could stare at that face the whole day.
it was a look i dont think ive seen before.
maybe in my imagination but never really in reality.
even now thinking about it, i remember the butterflies you gave me.
i know this may sound so high-school-girl-love-story-ish but it was real.
it happened to me.
and that already counts as a miracle.

i bumped into a few familiar faces.
some of them were easy to acquaint with once again, some not as easy.
but all in all it was good seeing your faces again (:
its like memories from the past being relived, just that at this moment you know things have changed.
either the way you are has changed.
or the relationship between you two has changed.
something.
but it felt comfortable with you.
sure there were some awkward pauses but seeing how far we've come, im glad i still have you.

controlling emotions is of utmost importance.
of all people i should know that.
but recently i have been letting loose.
get a grip.

waiting for this busy period to be over.
the countdown right now is at the tests.
after this comes the practice sessions.
in between that ab camp.
than more hardcore practice.
and finally the performance.
but of course with the academic pursuit still in place at its rigour.
and then maybe i would finally be free.

i should be studying.


i cant write a love song for you,
but a poem, maybe that i can do.
to show you how much you mean to me,
and how i feel for you when you cant see.
i think about you almost all the time,
reminiscing about the moment you became mine.
i want to hold you and never let go.
maybe, just maybe, one day i could do so.
you make me feel like there's nothing more i could want,
but only to be with you where we dont have to hide,
so that i could whisper into your ear one more time,
i love you dear, so stay by my side.