say i love you when you're not listening.
have been catching up with a few people recently.
got to finally meet my darling a few days ago.
im so proud of her.
talking to her under those beautiful stars, i could tell how much we had grown together.
once we were those silly immature girls who were just bawling out their hearts over the guy who broke their heart for the first time.
but now we can actually view a relationship as a wonderful experience even if it doesnt have a happy ending.
its amazing how through all those times we've been there for each other.
maybe i havent been there for her as much as she was.
but still i wouldnt give up all of this for anything in the world.
i love you my dear and i want you to know you'll always be part of me.
saw a stunning performance yesterday.
the control.
the flow of energy.
i couldnt help staring.
wishing i could be one of them.
well, maybe one day i just could be.
and the night was so beautiful.
though the image i saw was definitely creepy, it still had its own unique grace.
the quietness against that scarred circle of illumination.
if only you were there with me to share that moment.
and i felt gorgeous.
so here i am.
am i happy?
i most certainly am.
though i have been quite confused and having conflicting feelings i know i cant stay sad for long.
its like i've cultivated a form of joy thats so infectious it just spreads through my soul unconsciously.
im already getting better.
and so you finally said it yesterday.
though it wasnt exactly what i planned for.
well what do you know, me and plans just never seem to take the same road.
finally i know you meant it.
and you didnt just say it at that time because of circumstances.
i know its stupid because its something that i should already know without you having to say it out loud.
but i guess i just wanted that reassuring feeling.
to know it for real.
to get something tangible.
and not just wonder on the lingering emotions between us.
talking about all my human desires.
it makes my movie life seem that much more possible.
i mean its not something totally impossible but just the kind that you know will never happen to you.
well, maybe it might.
i guess im actually just finding for the right company.
its funny how everytime i dream about it, i see myself standing there alone.
in my house, on the beach, in paris.
but yet i know, im never alone.
that feeling sure brings great comfort.
and i'll keep believing.
as she grows, she opens up like the tender petals of a beautiful rose.
exposing her different sides to herself for discovery.
looking at life through her various lenses.
its an image she'll keep close to her heart.
she floats off in the air.
drifting above everyone else.
feeling like an angel sent to look over all the people who have their heads down.
and she approaches him.
lifting up his chin ever so slightly, she lets him feel love.
