cause its just too comfortable to give up.
alright so jc life is taking quite some time to get adjusted to.
and i had a little taste of how difficult it is going to be.
honestly, i never felt so clueless in a lecture before.
and i actually did feel like crap.
but thank you darling.
just started dance last friday.
and had another session just hours ago.
i swear its tiring as hell but the feeling of dancing is just so exciting.
especially so after all these years.
sure i feel so out of place when im not as flexible as the rest.
but what i cant make up for in flexibility, i make up for in passion.
the need to feel so much in a dance.
its just so empowering.
and so worth it.
okay so truth be told valentines day wasnt anything really special.
of course the gift i got from him was thoughtful beyond words and hearing how he struggled to get something appropriate for me makes me appreciate it even more.
but i guess it was just like everyday.
that also made me realise he is already perfect to me every other day and not just only on valentines day.
so seriously, what more could i ask for?
i hope i get through this year good enough without just barely making the pass.
its going to be really difficult to manage.
already foresee the problem of time management.
what with studies, dance and finding time around our schedules for each other.
its not going to be easy.
but of course, its always worth the effort.
she offers the most warm smile she can conjure.
dying inside just for the need of acceptance.
to see that flicker of kindness in the other's eyes.
its there for a moment.
but just as fast as her heart beating, its gone.
and all thats left is the cold display of disgust.
the cycle repeats.
