alright so life has been really good.
there's not anything i can complain about.
and im just happy almost all the time.
the sucky part about it is i know this doesnt last.
it just doesnt.
its too dream-like.
and thats why im just dreading the moment when i'll have to face the cold reality again.
safe and sound - current earworm.
she is awesome beyond words.
just when i think there could possibly be an artist better than her, she reels me back in with her songs.
till date she is the only artist that can make me cry with the power of her music.
true that its mostly her lyrics that affect me so much.
but thats good enough.
12 days.
its going to be pretty lonely without you guys.
i'll miss you.
i swear i wont take being healthy for granted again.
just make the pain go away.
no matter how much life passes and how happy you already are, there's just that one part that doesnt feel quite right.
alright maybe its just me.
i just cant figure it out at all.
its like im missing out on something so important.
maybe its something i have yet to encounter.
or maybe its something i have to rediscover.
hollow emptiness.
all the time.
it gets me thinking about the grand scheme of things.
about life.
true that im living life the way i would love it to be right now.
but there's always the buts.
i know they say have no regrets.
but what if i did something differently, and i find out about this mysterious segment of my life thats been eluding me thus far?
its like i feel myself gravitating towards the fact that i just have to find out something.
something that is so important and could change my life greatly.
something that completes me as a being.
it sounds out of this world when its written in words but some feelings are just too difficult to express.
i stare into the night skies all the time.
what part of the picture am i missing?
i can derive great pleasure from deep thoughts.
but that feeling always accompanies it.
sitting down with her arms curled around her legs and gazing into the distance.
is she searching for a person?
or just a place to be?
deep down her soul there's that urgent quest for something more.
you can see it in her dark brown eyes which clouds her vision.
is it a matter of perception?
was at dad's office earlier on today.
since there's really nothing to do at all i stumbled over online quizzes about practically everything.
being the person i am i did those related to living life, relationships and others like that.
i came to realise i am moulding my life into the way i always wanted it to be.
i am being perceived the way i want to be by those who truly understand me.
that is one part about me that i've yet to find if it has changed.
am i still that misunderstood girl?
guess i dont have to wait long for that.
i am looking forward to starting school again.
though of course there is that small part of me that likes rotting the day away.
but still the greater part of me would rather do something productive.
am i ready to face the fresh wave of judgement?
just realised my phone brand is very good motivation.
Life's Good.
hold on to this lullaby.
even when the music's gone.
