had such a terrible hour.
but thank you my love.
i dont know what i would do without you.
you really are there whenever i need you.
thanks babe (:
and you know me all too well.
you knew i wouldnt make that message cause i wouldnt dare.
so i have to thank you for sparing me the misery of wondering the worst case scenario.
you're just awesome.

im really worried already.
i dont know what to think anymore.
i cant think of a scenario where its so bad that you cant even do that.
because its just not possible.
and also because i dont want that to be possible.
i wish i could do something about it but all i can do is wait...right?
all thats on my mind is that right now.
in fact its all i've been thinking about since tues.
it made me realise how attached i've become.
cause today when i was made to think the most dreadful...i really couldnt handle that.
and i just felt so vulnerable all over again.
i'd really like to believe thats not the case.
and that that wont happen.
not for anytime now.

i dont think i've ever been this worried for anyone.
or at least i dont recall.

i just want to see you smile once more.