its a sucky feeling.
i cant believe im being so pathetic.
but truth is i am.
oh god Loges you seriously need to go get a life.
life goes on and you can make yourself happy.

had another day where i just had to drag myself out of bed.
didnt find any reason to wake up.
i mean i was totally looking forward to today till i found out.
and then i expected then you've have to cancel.
but as always there's that small part of me clinging on to that little bit of hope.
and this time i was right.
you did not prove me wrong.
i mean i know its not your fault...
but its just a sucky feeling.
deal with it.
and on top of that there was that ANNOYING drilling sound.
and it was so hardcore it literally shook my bed.
seriously they want the whole block to wake up at 9am?
i mean hello there are some people who would like to sleep in.
buggers.
and then feels just like another day totally wasted.
but i know im just waiting for the days to pass.
but still i hate feeling like i wasted my day.

im guessing you're starting to mean more to me than i thought you actually did.
i dont know if thats a good or bad thing.
god its just an awful day.

the only good part of the day was watching himym.
it seriously made me laugh this time.
thats a really good show.
and now all the character voices in my head.

please get better soon.
im worried for you.