Crashing under the weight of deception.
Fuck you.

call me weird but i miss going to school.
miss that whole experience of getting out of bed with half open eyes.
miss taking the train and observing people's mornings.
miss the random drama that happens in school.
miss a routine.
miss going out lunch with the group.
miss talking about everything under the sun with you.
i miss you all )":

its funny how people like new beginnings but i always dread them.
yet another round of first impressions.
of the rumours.
and of the realisation later.
that sucks.
i wonder.
maybe i do need a fresh start.
to see if i've finally broken that vicious cycle.

its funny how my past keeps resurfacing.
even the ones i haven't thought of in ages.
i dont know what is it about me that makes me always end up on the other side.
someone please tell me cause im really clueless.

judgemental human beings.

when you look at the bigger things, you actually realise there's nothing much.
that hollow feeling.
i just cant figure it out.
is it my insecurities acting up?
i can never really tell.

negligence.

one moment you can feel on top of the world but the next you just feel so lonely.
blame it on the moodswings.
yeah.

one accident can change everything.
it changes how people perceive you.
and whatever you did before that doesn't matter anymore.
so it's like you have to constantly be on guard.
you can't risk any mistakes.
people forget the person you were.
you become that spiteful person they never want to get close to.
one accident.
thats all it takes.

when i say i love you, i mean it.
i don't ever want to take you for granted.
trust me.