wrong timings.

been pretty busy.
thursday had council dance!!!
*ultimate love*
*faints*
haha
afiq and jasmine ROCK.
seriously i really love the dance (:
but its so sad to think that'll be the last dance we all will be dancing together... ):
im going to miss all the fun and high-ness we have everytime.
i dont want this last dance to come yet...
its too soon.
gosh im really going to miss all of it.
every little bit of it.
the hard time choreographing.
the times we slack and then rush last minute.
trying to teach everyone the dance.
fighting over dance partners.
hahaha it can get to be quite a bit too much drama but its all worth it (:
I LOVE ASC.
enough said.
heh.

both sis and dad liked my card.
yay-ness.
though i really dont know what to get them.

haha coach said i improved.
HAHA.

i think my sis spread me the virus.
feeling really hot around the nose and throat area.
i think i'll get a fever.
grr as long as it doesnt hurt the throat like shit again.
but nvm look forward to monday DANCE!
*awesome love*

i really should start on my holiday homework.
haha i got it neatly stacked and listed.
im just so freaking lazy to do it.

yay my DARLING MEIMEI going genting with me!!
super awesome-ness ttm!
its going to be freaking fun.
i swear.
one more week!
hehe (:

missing all the japan people.
i bet they're having fun like nobody's ass
while we're here telling each other how much we miss them.
and wanting them to come back faster.
hahaha we're pathetic people.
but i like (:
hee.


"now..
you're the most wonderful girl i know.
if it changes,
then let the currents of time take that away.
now..
its just you and me..."

imysm.

boom.boom.boom.

god im freaking tired.
i think i'll be sleeping soon.

lessons until 2.30.
they expect us to go without lunch.
whatthehell ):

bye my dear darling!
come back soooooooon (:
im gonna miss youuu ):
hehe.

i promise i'll start my maths homework.
maybe after grad ball.
but definitely before december.
studying holidays ):
maybe study outings then!
yay (:

oh my mama.
keep yawning.

off to watch videos.
goodnight world (:


and that was the day that i promised
i'd never sing of love
if it does not exist.
but darling,
you are
the only exception.
(:

fear of being it now.
damn.
sleep it off loges.
it'll all be alright (:

lingering in the past.
dang.
looking into every word.
no, i dont want to be.
argh.
thats the last thing really.
i dont want that to happen.
sheez these insecurities.
love yourself loges.
love yourself.
back then, when you still could go through.
be like that again.
dont make it everything to you.
it'll just destroy you.

and the fear creeps up on me.

if i didnt have something worth living for,
i really would want to kill myself already.
pain everywhere.
no one is going to believe me.
but time does heal all wounds.
and im not going to be stupid again.

i want something.
i just dont know what.

im sick and tired of explaining to you.
my mouth hurts saying the same thing over and over again.
can you please listen for once?
stop your work and just look at me.
listen.
thats all i want.
i know you're busy.
and i know you do it for me.
but what's the point if you cant even listen to me talk?
forget it.
i bet you didnt even hear that.

i dont know what to do about you anymore.
i guess i can only wait for you to realise that im no more the small girl.
no more the little girl who was fascinated by fake promises.
no more the girl who could tolerate keeping it inside of herself.
cause by tolerating i only created more problems.
you thought i was going crazy.
well i was.
but you never cared to listen still.
just because im younger than you doesnt mean i dont know what other people feel.
im sensitive.
i understand her.
i want you to.
but of course, you think you're right.

i know you've sacrificed alot for me.
but please, its the small things that matter to me.

im fine.
i promise you that.
i just needed to let it out.



i hope you know how much you mean to me.
and what would happen to me if you left.
you're my pillar of strength, hope, love.
you're always embracing my thoughts.

so if you go,
i just want you to know
ive never met anyone like you before.