crap.
im bloody tired.
and my bruise hurts more now.
i hate men who stare at women like they want to eat them.
its damn disgusting.
and fucking annoying.
but worse, i hate people who push others around.
just so as to get their way.
its freaking pissoff.
like as though they're gonna die if they wait for 2 seconds.
bloody shittyasses.
i just feel like saying this.
though you probably wont see this.
well, at least not anymore.
im sorry.
i really am.
i never meant for you to be like this.
this was the exact thing i've been avoiding the whole time.
i really didnt want it to come down to this.
but i guess i cant stop it.
i needed time to figure out things.
figure out myself.
but you were just too impatient.
if only you waited awhile more,
just till i figure out everything,
maybe then you wouldnt have to end up like this.
but i still feel terrible to put you in that position.
cause i know exactly how it feels like.
i dont know what to do.
i dont know what to say.
but i want you to know i never meant it to be like this.
i just wanted to be friends.
thats all.
im sorry.
i feel like such a bitch today.
im sorry if i pissed anyone off.
im just so tired.
i feel like sleeping where i dont dream of anything.
like in a black void.
with white noise.
stay that way for some time.
till the headache just wears off.
its just one of the days where her world feels like its going upside down.
where everything which made her happy gave her a tinge of disappointment.
where in a crowd, she feels alone.
and when in solitude,
she feels complete.
