Sunday, October 31, 2010 @ 10:03:00 PM
Feeling so fly
finished baking all my pastries!
left is oreo cheesecake (:
feel like going to a dance party know.
its crazy and really random.
but hell yeah.
school tomorrow.
still dont feel like studying.
shitt.
i love my weekends nowadays.
its damn tiring but i do alot.
and with sis..its just awesome ^^
woo, another 5 more days.
its freaking fast.
but who cares, im gonna work my ass off.
dad finally knows my results.
he's seriously expecting much more next year.
dammit.
sometimes i wonder if i say too much.
omg, ive been eating SO MUCH.
have to sew my mouth shut.
okay, off to dance.
im yours.you're mine.lives intertwined.miss you. inspires
Tuesday, October 19, 2010 @ 9:21:00 PM
Declarations
crap.
im bloody tired.
and my bruise hurts more now.
i hate men who stare at women like they want to eat them.
its damn disgusting.
and fucking annoying.
but worse, i hate people who push others around.
just so as to get their way.
its freaking pissoff.
like as though they're gonna die if they wait for 2 seconds.
bloody shittyasses.
i just feel like saying this.
though you probably wont see this.
well, at least not anymore.
im sorry.
i really am.
i never meant for you to be like this.
this was the exact thing i've been avoiding the whole time.
i really didnt want it to come down to this.
but i guess i cant stop it.
i needed time to figure out things.
figure out myself.
but you were just too impatient.
if only you waited awhile more,
just till i figure out everything,
maybe then you wouldnt have to end up like this.
but i still feel terrible to put you in that position.
cause i know exactly how it feels like.
i dont know what to do.
i dont know what to say.
but i want you to know i never meant it to be like this.
i just wanted to be friends.
thats all.
im sorry.
i feel like such a bitch today.
im sorry if i pissed anyone off.
im just so tired.
i feel like sleeping where i dont dream of anything.
like in a black void.
with white noise.
stay that way for some time.
till the headache just wears off.
its just one of the days where her world feels like its going upside down.
where everything which made her happy gave her a tinge of disappointment.
where in a crowd, she feels alone.
and when in solitude,
she feels complete.
inspires
Monday, October 18, 2010 @ 11:36:00 PM
i love you and i really miss you right now.
okay bye (:
inspires
Saturday, October 16, 2010 @ 1:00:00 AM
Kept my eyes open,
on the lookout,
in front of me,
a huge crowd.
Tracing back to
a familiar place,
trying to relive
memories from younger days.
Back then,
things were simpler
and probably with no clues
about the future.
Every single time here
was about fun and the team,
till one day I saw,
you across the street.
It was like natural response
yet so unreal,
as my eyes
were simply drawn to you.
The way you performed,
that stood out,
displaying character,
that i very much sought.
The first step the toughest
made me ponder over and over
before i dare make the
unforgettable venture.
That took care of the start,
of how we met,
what follows was not great,
but not entirely bad.
Perhaps a matter of personality,
likes and habit,
that put us poles apart,
then i realize we can't bridge.
Throw in distance.
and reduce the time on hand.
We are not measuring speed,
but the heartache separation can land.
Days followed where I felt,
that things can't go on anymore,
took the plunge,
and whatever we knew just took the fall.
Try erasing the hurt,
but the memory will still last,
for its never really possible
to let go of the past.
I could remember being like the dwarf
who was so taken by the white lady,
Just to see her once again,
he became the first of his kind to cross the sea.
So what would i do,
if once again i see you.
The words that comes to my mind,
are distinctly few.
A little hope still exist,
if we could turn back time
take a different turn,
through another choice.
But where are you,
where are you,
I'm searching,
keeping my eyes peeled.
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12:44:00 AM
another one:
I feel comfy when I'm with her,
the feeling that someone
understands and cares,
maybe more than i do.
The one who brings the smiles,
shows that lonely is not at all
what i look for
and that i have the capacity for one more.
Knows me like a friend,
adores me more than one,
and my companion for
the long walks and more to come. inspires
12:23:00 AM
found this (:
A house by the sea,
how is that?
Or you prefer one
that overlooks the greens.
I guess that's for me,
very much nature, away from city.
Of stone or brick,
that I shall make.
The shelter that house you,
and our home it shall be.
These hands will toil,
to provide what you may need.
Thousands of sunset,
uncountable of nights.
Days and years,
passing by.
Witnessing the story,
of you and I.
Till now,
it can only be a dream.
Saving for the magical touch,
to make it reality.
Saving for that the special one,
to set these hopes free. inspires
Friday, October 15, 2010 @ 11:03:00 PM
Insecurities
exams are overr.
release it already.
im feeling like a pig.
i've been sleeping like shit.
i need to get out already.
craving for something.
hmmm...
i really need to control my spending.
i need to save.
im going to go broke at this rate.
sunday photo shoot (L)
i realised i've a lot of catching up to do.
many people i havent been replying to.
sorry, im just having the days when i just dont feel like picking up my phone.
dont mean any harm.
woohoo, its 11.11 and i just made a wish (:
found this and i think its really sweet:
i dont know where i stand with you
and i dont know what i mean to you.
all i know is everytime i think of you
all i want to do is be with you.
(:
i can FINALLY touch my legs while doing back curve!
but everytime i get up i get dizzy spells.
but it feels great to accomplish it (:
its been really long since i've ranted about anything.
like months i think.
feels kinda weird in a way..but its good.
i wouldnt want a reason to rant..
someone bring me bugis.. ):
gazing at your face at 2am.
the wonders that it bring just to feel your hand.
i know its getting late but baby,
please dont go.
cause everytime you do,
i only want you more.
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