how the magic works.


i miss the house already.
the vacant spaces.
it was just perfect.

i just spent 3 days wasting my life away.
but it was just what i needed.
now its back to homework and studies.
haiz.


three nights.
you came in all.
and i remembered all somehow,
when they say that you forget 90% of your dreams.
why are you so distinct?
i wonder if you'll come tonight.

Labels: the wait of the life

and sometimes i dont have to try.




my parents dont have to meet mr chye!
hahahahahaa.
he seriously freaked me out.
hehe (:

sports carnival was LOVE.
haha!
i didnt take much pictures this time.
but i still love it!
singing like crazy till my throat was burning.
and then after that gulping down coke till my stomach was filled with gas (x
happy happy happy.
woo!


hearts! spectator's stand.

Labels: i'll never let you go

bet it used to feel that way.

im going to be a happy kid from now on.
well, at least i'll try (:



i passed my ss and history!
haha, i had fun (:

i like this.
i was so pissed and mad and just feeling like going crazy.
but you guys still made me happy.
thanks, it really means a lot to me (:





im learning something new everyday.
and each day it doesn't fail to suprise me.
self-realisation.
i owe to it big time.
if not for that, i seriously would still be in my own world.
crying for nothing.
feeling like shit for nothing.
doing stupid stuff for nothing.
but all that is going to change from now on.
im no more going to be that stupid foolish girl.
that girl who had it written all over her forehead.
sure it will take time.
i hated change.
but things do have their way of becoming better (:














im just not going to wait anymore.
and one day, you'll see me dancing with the clouds.
high in the sky, where you can't reach me anymore.
don't regret it then.
cause i don't think i'll want to turn back.
iloveyou.
but it's just no more.

Labels: leaving finally

and its beautiful.

im sick and tired of being sick already.
i feel like taking some permanent medicine.
one where i don't fall sick again within the week.

so far i've failed 2 subjects.
wondering if i failed combined humans too...
i hope not.
this year it just seriously screws.
i study like shit.
but i get shittier results.
irony.
and its even more shit when people around you do better than you do.
and they go "i did so terribly!"
and then i'll be thinking what about me?
shit.

i still havent decided my travel plans.
stuck between options.
it sucks.





sometimes when we get so caught up in trying to make others happy...
...we tend to forget about ourselves.

Labels: just tell me its going to be okay

i have to stop doin that.



i feel much better now.
went to the petshop to cheer myself up.
the cat there was super cute!
i had no heart to leave it.
it was meow-ing as i left, like as though it didn't want me to.
i just wished i could have stayed there longer.
too bad its the exam period...
i promise to go back there one day cat (:

got to get back to my physics.
i still can't believed i screwed a paper which i could have done well in.
like i said, i feel like screwing myself uspide down.
haha.
i've got to concentrate tmr.
i can't screw up anymore papers.
get out. get out. get out.
eff...still in there.
somehow i'm going to do it.



i've run out of he said she said for now...
...cause they don't talk much anymore..

Labels: i hope it gets better from here

sometimes i just want to get into a horrible accident.
just to find out if you would come to see me.
even though others might be holding you back.

i need you now


it hurts.
every single time.
the wrenching feeling.
i get tired too.
but im the one who does the least.
right.
forget it.
it just feels exactly like back in those days.
i guess things didn't change.
i must have been a fool to think it did.
and a greater fool to think she might understand.
after 7 years.
who am i kidding?

my eyes were freaking pain.
i felt feverish.
i knew staying there made me worse.
but of course i didn't want to leave.




he said: hey!
she said: heyy....i-
he said: i gotta go. tty some other time ok?
she said: uh..yeah...ok...
she thinks: guess im on my own now...well, at least you got yourself. and you know you won't hurt yourself...
*starts talking to herself like a mad person*

Labels: only person left

i feel it at times too.


im going to fall sick.
i know it.
i always fall sick during the exams or after the exams.
damn.
feels like shit.
i don't know why.
just does.
i think my mum might have spread it to me.
im not immune to viruses.
haha.



he said: i'll ttyl ok?
she said: don't say that.
he said: huh?
she said: cause the later never comees. and im left there hanging, waiting for what never comes.

Labels: you don't either

i love my malaysia house.
i just wish it was in singapore.
hahas.
pictures :D






i had sudden cloud craze. hehe

Labels: there's just no more